Dilemma

Sometimes I wonder what the Life has kept in store for me,

I’m fine with what’s happening but is that how’s it gonna be?

Will there be contentment to the core of every context?

Or is it that I’m gonna loose a bit of it in pretext?

Is there something I’m holding myself back from?

Will it be the one I’ll regret for in the times to come?

Can anyone suggest me what is the remedy for it all?

Why do I fear for what I’ve chosen from the destiny’s stall?

Don’t know where I’m heading to & what turns I’m taking,

Don’t even know how’s it affecting me & which future is in Making

Leaving the rights & wrongs behind, I’m being a bit self-centered,

Losing trust on everyone out there, course of life has got altered,

All the questions I pose to myself, unable to figure out the way,

People claim what do they feel but I don’t believe what they say,

So perplexed, my situation is, that I’m not able to see thru,

And so convoluted the matter is, that I need the courage to be true,

I don’t want to start the ventures, for which I can envision the future,

The future wherein lies the pain and that tells the stories of rupture.

I know, what will be the Outcome, is something that formulates all inceptions,

To follow the suit, even I’ve started building my world around perceptions,

I’m a Loner & would gladly prefer to stay the same,

Rather than flowing with the stream first and later on losing the Game.